DREADING

October 29, 2009 Thursday

I feel so utterly fantastic. I'm sore from taking class on Tuesday, but a good sore. It shows how long it's been since I last danced, and how much I haven't moved since surgery. Mostly my legs are sore. I dread next week. Tuesday is Chemo #2 and now I know what to expect. The 'high' the otherworldly feeling, the disconnect, the dry dry dry mouth, the lack of appetite because everything I put on my tongue will taste like sh*t, and then the gut trouble. I think I dread the gut trouble most of all. I'm not a good patient. I admit it. Will this be the week I really start to lose my hair? They all keep saying my hair will fall out....well....I'm still waiting....if I'm going to lose it, I'd like to get it gone, so I can move on. I'm so impatient for some things and drag my heels on other things, I'm psycho! So I go about my business living my life and appreciating the days that are great. Like today. I like food again. I had Chinese Food last night, yummy! What to eat today? hmmmm....

I have to get to office work that I've put off, but can no longer ignore. See what I mean about dragging my heels? But paperwork and receipts must be recorded or my CPA will have my head! Do my P/T homework, go to the grocery store, clean my house...Wait. Sounds like normal. Wow. Normal for the next 5 days. Yeah!!!!

Nite!

Light and Love!

Melissa