Yesterday was a great day! I finally got back to my Luigi. My, how I missed dance class. It felt so good to move again. The morning started with exhaustion. I almost didn't go. I decided to take a nap before I made my final decision. I woke still wiped out, but determined that if I didn't go then, I'd be less likely to go the rest of the week. I promised myself I wouldn't push myself, and if I didn't feel good, I'd quit and just observe. Ed didn't want me to go, he saw how tired I was, but I promised to be a good girl. When I arrived at the studio, it was as if everyone knew I was coming. All my friends were there. Hugs and cheers, and kisses. I almost cried when I saw my dance mentor, Luigi. I knew I missed him, I just didn't realize how much. The love was an instant dose of good medicine. It was a good class for me, I got almost all the way through the warm-up before feeling like I had to back off a little, and Laura was there to remind me to slow down. A gentle whisper and a hug that it would take time to get back to the way I was. Permission to mark it. Thank you. Next choreography. I was nervous that my brain wouldn't be able to retain, since I have trouble remembering short term right now. Chemo brain sucks. But dance is from the heart, and my heart doesn't have short term memory, it is full of decades of training, dance is from heart, the soul. I did well, and it wasn't until the last 10 minutes of class that I started to feel as if the brain and heart were not communicating. So I did my best and didn't beat myself up too much when my legs wouldn't do what my brain was asking. I LOVE LUIGI. He doesn't realize the love he truly gives. He infects you with spirit and joy. As I took class I was once again thinking, "This should be a class for Breast Cancer patients. It gently moves you. The stretching of the arms, and your body has helped me loosen up the scar tissue and I have such wonderful range of motion. If I could I'd find a way to make it possible for every woman recovering from breast cancer surgery to take this class.
After class, the gals headed off for a light lunch and coffee (water for me), and we had a grand time chatting, catching up, and enjoying each other's company. Next I met Ian to take him to his first class with Greg Parente, Meisner Technique, then after the class rushed Ian to his show. By the time I got home, I was spent. A great day, but in reality, I did too much.
Today, I'm super tired. Knew I would be, but thankfully, I only have to go to my Radiation Oncology appointment to meet with Dr. Fermente and discuss my treatment, and do a CatScan. After that, I'll come home and do some shopping before the big snow storm blows into town. then, tonight, I'll cuddle up next to my sweetheart and most likely drift off to sleep. And it's nice to know that the City has already reported that schools will be closed tomorrow. So as the snow falls on the City that never shuts down over night, the sounds of the City will be muted in the morning and my dreams will continue beyond the dawn.
Today, is Part Two of my treatment. The journey continues on, and I continue my determination in complete victory in overcoming Breast Cancer, and becoming the healthiest I've ever been.
Here's to a better me!
Nite!
Light and Love!
Melissa
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