WHAT A BEAUTIFUL DAY!

March 7, 2010 Sunday

I may not be able to sleep, but with days this beautiful, who cares!?

My hot flashes continue on and oddly I'm not getting use to them. Go figure. They come without warning, they usually hit at the least opportune moments, and mine seem to go on forever!

Yesterday was spent helping out my daughter who at one point thought that she had lost ALL of her meds. This is not a good thing at all. Also, hysterical over the fact that her boyfriend could not find his wallet nor his passport, so it was looking as if he would not get to go to Hawaii. What is it about moms that make the seemingly impossible possible? It took a long time to calm things down before she would believe me when I told her Matt would find at least his passport. I hung up the phone and was getting ready to call the pharmacy and the phone rang again ~ he found his passport. I'm like a magic charm. Perhaps there ought to be a prayer to Saint Melissa, the patron saints of kids who've lost important stuff? It could go something like this..."I'm sorry to be such a pain, but I've lost the important thing Mom told me not to lose, Please, can you help me find it? I promise I'll be better at taking care of my IMPORTANT stuff from now on." Of course after I made arrangements to have all of her meds replaced, she texts me with the good news that the medication was found. I told her to pick up the meds anyway that way she has them. She needed to refill some of them anyway. She agreed, and then once I was in bed fast asleep (a rarity) she calls and says, (and I'm not kidding), "Mom, please don't be mad at me. I thought the Pharmacy was open every night until 8pm. So I went shopping for bikini tops before going for the Rx's, and we went to the pharmacy and it was closed." ARE YOU KIDDING ME???!!! How can I be mad at her? All I could do was laugh at what she thought was more important. It was not bikini tops, or meds; it was GAS! It would have wasted gas to go to the pharmacy first and then the Mall. She was already near the Mall, so time and gas would have been wasted going back and forth.

W-H-A-T-E-V-E-R!! I give up. So she goes to Hawaii with a shortage of meds for the week. I walk away with arms thrown up it in frustration. It is what it is, kids are kids, not adults! Nothing ever changes, nothing. She still needs me and I'm damned because I don't live out there when she needs me to be her personal assistant.

She called this morning and the car service went to the wrong address about a half and hour away from where she lives. KARMA! This is her karma. Karma will continue to get in the way of her pleasure until she steps up and owns her medical condition. So I chanted for her last night, I chanted for her this morning. She made the plane, she is on her way to Hawaii, she will have a blast shooting there and even more fun taking a few extra days to relax. She'll forget the trauma of losing her meds for a few hours, Matt's loss of wallet and passport for a while, and even that the car went to the wrong place. She's earned the peace of mind. That's what mothers are for; to clear away the mess. We spent their whole entire growing up years cleaning up the mess they made. Some days they would follow you around messing up where you just finished cleaning. Yesterday was one of those days. Makes me smile that she still needs me, I'm that important, that I am Saint Mommy, and I can find or fix anything in her mind.

So I go to my day, a beautiful Sun-filled day, a Sunday, a warm day (54 degrees), and I Thank God I have a daughter who stills needs me. I'm worn out, but I refuse to let it take me down today. Spring is nearer and nearer, and I, for one, intend to welcome it with open arms.

Nite!

Light and Love!

Melissa