I see the Shrink today for my assessment. I am getting help today. I look forward to it. I started the meds on Wednesday night and already the hot flashes over night have been greatly reduced. I didn't sleep well the first night; a lot of tossing and turning, but at least I didn't flash every 30-40 minutes. Last night, I had a couple of bad flashes, but I slept a little bit better. So perhaps with time and the adjustment of the effexor I'll find the balance to sleep and not flash over night.
I'm so tired, the lack of sleep has taken its toll on me. Physically, I ache, my head hurts, my eyes feel strained. I just don't want to move, I'm so tired, but I can't sleep. It's so multi-layered, not just the physical stuff but the worries about money (or the lack thereof), it just seems so hopeless somedays. Ed is trying so hard to find work and keeps coming up empty handed. Our savings are gone, and unemployment ... well... I'm worried, and If I'm worried, there is real cause for concern.
I don't mean to whine, but it's all I have right now. I chant and chant and try to stay positive, and will continue to do so. My port gets removed on May 3, don't know the time yet, I'll find that out on 4/30.
One less thing to worry about.
Life moves on, the sun is shinning, and the day beckons to me. Have a great healthy day!
Nite!
Light and Love!
Melissa
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